Yesterday started out as a magnificent day. I went walking. I enjoyed being alone with my thoughts. I planned a walking meditation session which I did, starting out. I just walked, listened to the birds, and the sound the wind made through the trees. I allowed my mind to become still. I was in awe at the beauty before me. I felt energized and ready to enjoy my day off. However, when I got home, and got my mail, my seemingly perfect day was about to take a turn for the worst. Without getting into the details I received a letter that could change everything in my world. Of course the minute I read this letter my subconcious mind was ready to come forward and churn up every and all previous devastating experiences I ever had.
Just then an inner conflict started to occur. I could feel a ball rise up in the pit of my stomach. This feeling was coming from my sacral chakra. It felt as though it was growing through throbs. It felt warm and grew hotter every second. I could feel fear and anxiety welling up. Then almost instantaneously I felt a vibration on the top of my head. This vibration was located in the area of my crown chakra. There weren’t any thoughts, only a sense of peace. It was like half of my body was tightening up while the other half was peaceful and relaxed. This went on for about five minutes or so. I went to lie down. I needed a moment to try to make sense out of what was happening.
My stomach was telling me this could be catastrophic while my head was telling me I had nothing to worry about. My husband came into the room to see if I was OK, and I began to explain how I was feeling, I found myself saying: ”I want to feel like this is a big deal, but I know that God has already created solutions to problems I haven’t even had yet”. ”I feel like if I try to get involved or try to hide from the truth, getting through this could be a whole lot harder than if I just relax and let it unfold as it should”. “I know Gods got my back. He hasn’t failed me yet and I don’t suspect He ever will”. With that last statement I was up on my feet again ready to resume the beautiful day I was having before reading the mail.
This whole process took about ten minutes. Because of my continued work with my intuition I found it easy to notice what was happening internally after receiving the initial data. That one piece of mail. Being able to recognize the internal cues from my body helped me to quickly make sense of what was happening. It helped me to work through it with a lot less drama and turmoil. There was a time in my life, not so long ago, that information of such magnitude would have sent me into a week-long depression. Which at the time I thought it was normal. I thought, there is no way that someone can get terrible news and be happy. It’s just not possible. Well, I was terribly wrong. It is possible. It is possible to receive bad news, process it, and give it to God. Take it from a person who used to be volatile, and out of control when the smallest of problems would happen. Unfortunately we all have them, problems are a part of life. We can allow them to take us down or lift us up. I personally choose the latter.